Help? What can I do about this fear?!?

You should definitely go talk to a counsellor of some sort - there might be one at your school, if not talk to a teacher. I know its horrible having to open yourself up to someone you barely know but you've done it here so you can do it to them!! One of my friends had a similarish problem and they found that talking to a counsellor really helped. I really hope that things work out for you because you seem like a nice person. *hugs* email me if you think you feel you want to talk to someone :)